s.i.c.k.

i am tired of being sick...

i am sick of being tired...

and the final paper is just two days away...

HELP!!!

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Hari yang menarik!

Mnrk #1.

Apa lagi yang lebih menarik setelah hampir dua bulan tak balik rumah dan menjenguk ibubapa kan? To have them to come to you, of course! Petang Jumaat, Mamita & Papito datang melawat aku di Tronoh pulak lepas mengambil Cik Buyut di Kolej Matrikulasi Perak di Gopeng.

Baru seminggu dia masuk, itupun baru lepas minggu orientasi dah nak balik. Haha. Tapi aku dulu pun macam tu jugak. Baru masuk daftar dua minggu, dah home-sick. Hee.

Sambung cerita tadi. Tak ada lah lama mana pun mereka stay. Sempat makan malam bersama saja lah. Okay lah tu kan. Aku pun still ada exam paper HRM esoknya, tak habis hafal pun lagi at that time. Menarik dapat jumpa mereka. Lepas sikit rindu. Rasa macam dapat semangat baru nak study. Dapat restu.

Tambah best, bila mamita siap kirimkan dua plastik penuh stok makanan untuk aku yang tinggal lagi dua minggu je kat hostel ni. Saving! hee.


Mnrk #2.

The only thing that got us through the week is the straight-after-HRM paper outing. Separuh merdeka la konon-konon =p. Ke mana lagi kalau bukan ke Ipoh kan. (duh~~)

First stop untuk makan sedap-sedap - Restoran Laksamana Cheng Ho, a chinese muslim eatery at GreenTown. Saja cari something different kali ni, sebab dah bosan with the daily cafe-Tropika-Segitiga-Medan punya food.




Sedap? Boleh-boleh je lah. Normal price, affordable lah. Sorang makan, adalah dalam RM12 including drinks... If order set for 4 pun menarik, but maybe next time pulak kot.


Us with the food. Excited gile muke guwe n Chixx. Shalala n Mimi muke control gile!!


Dah kenyang, next stop, Kinta City. Cari parking macam orang gila. Orang Ipoh memang tak ada tempat lain nak pergi kot. Tambah-tambah sebab ade sales rupanya! Patut lah ramai semacam.

The main plan was to watch Narnia. Dah berkurun kot tak menonton. Keje mendownload kat DC++ jer. Tapi, once sampai, wayang yang awal-awal semua dah fully booked. Midnight ada la, tapi macam lambat sangat. So, kitorang move on to the next stop...

... is SHOGUN, Batu Gajah! Tak boleh blah la kan, this time, karok macam orang gila. Pecah rekod habis this time. First time guna bilik kat 3rd floor. Tak ada orang. Memang lagi lah kitorang selamba parapappa lah kan.

Our selection songs pun kali ni lain dari yg lain. Jadi havoc bila tema lagu-lagu kali ni adalah lagu rock kapak, dangdut, hindustan and lagu bodoh2 - just to name a few: ketahuan, sampai hati, di bawah pohon cemara, isabella, asyik, angkat kaki, bulan cinta, hitam manis, sepuluh budak hitam. hakhak! Layan sungguh! Siap boleh main-main sambung nyanyi lagu orang bilik sebelah. Gila!


Feeling deh guwe nyanyi, mulut tak boleh blah nganga. haha!


Tup tap tup tap, rupa-rupanye almost four hours jugak kami melalak-lalak dalam tu - 138 songs. well.. so-so lah. Sedap tak sedap belakang cerita. Tapi, macam nais je bunyi-bunyian di telinga kami, so kira sedap jugak la kot. Hoho.

After tu... is history sebab memang balik-balik hostel terus terjelepok tidur. zzz...


Mnrk #3

Apa lagi yang lebih menarik dari melepak-lepak dan tak payah pening-pening study. Bangun tidur pun dah pukul berapa. Sunday and Monday are consider a break day! So layan tengok series + movies. Menarik!!

Tambah menarik bila aku tiba-tiba mengidam chicken chop + mashed potato. Sanggup tu menunggu petang-petang sikit pegi tapau food sorang. (Makan punya pasal, of course la kena bersemangat!) . Makan sambil tengok cerita, nyum nyum nyum, dekat empat keping roti sekali aku telan. Wargh. Perut tapir sungguh.

Dialog ringkas bersama seorang member.

S: Kau tak perasan ke badan kau dah naik?

Aku: Hikhikhik. Masa-masa nak exam mana boleh diet-diet. :P

Well, ayat cover malu je tu. Truth hurts deh. Dan memang nafsu makan dahsyat sungguh sekarang ni. Plus, dengan makan yang cukup three meals sehari. Tak kurang langsung. Maybe, kena consider diet during this holiday. Mungkin je lah! Haha.

Esok bermula lagi rutin di kala exam. Have to lah.

Three down, two more papers left! Whee~


XOXO,
A!

Respect

it's consider normal that after some time of a relationship,
people reached the level of
comfort.


there, we can see them finally out their shell.
it's either the people are showing more or less of them;
with the reason of - comfortability to do anything;
as - hey, we've known them inside and out, vice versa.


everything went well until...
they reach the danger zone.


privacy.

and respect.


just how much does those three goes parallel together?
just how do we know where exactly the border that draw the line of what's up and what's not?


overall, i do believe,
in whatever situation - respect comes #1.


or maybe i don't deserve to be respected?

Kehidupan di musim exam.

Aktiviti rutin mula memenuhi hari-hari aku sejak terasa bahang musim peperiksaan. Di tambah pula dengan tekanan (due to the last minute study obviously) memang terasa macam tak ada life sungguh!

first step: buat notes!

Destinasi setiap hari - IRC. Reason: Bilik banyak godaan haha. katil, Internet, panas and simply rasa malas itu. Alasan~ IRC sejuk, plus boleh cuci-cuci mata. Then, rasa rajin nak selak buku pun meningkat, sebab dah jauh-jauh gerak peluh2 semua kan... penat badan je if tak belajar kan... kan?

the view from my favorite spot in the library.

Hari-hari pun ada tiga sesi. Sesi pagi, petang dan malam. Bermula dari 8.15 pagi (yang kadang-kadang terlajak jugak, biasa la janji melayuuuu) hingga 11.30 malam (straight gerak right lepas IRC bunyi dang ding dung sebab nak kejar parking yg sikit k).

Selalunya, kena ada a few minutes of warming up with a here and there hot gossips(!!), barulah aku mula meng-revise. Since my three papers in week #1 are all reading subjects, that means kepala tersengguk-sengguk sewaktu membaca adalah perkara normal. That's why along the time, ada diselitkan dengan aktiviti tambahan:- makan & mengunyah junk food, berulang-alik ke toilet, mengusha couples and who's hot & who's not haha.

kanak-kanak yang sedang khusyuk. confirm sejuk perut mak korang nampak nih.


lakonan pelajar yg rajin gagal; tertonjol melalui my obvious smirking.

Waktu rehat hanyalah untuk pulang ke bilik untuk makan, solat, online & tengok series curi-curi waktu makan. Hectic tak hectic sangat lah. Sampai bilik pun dah almost midnight, meaning - memang terus terlantar dan tergolek atas katil lah. Dalam tidur pun kadang-kadang boleh mimpi tengah menghafal. Wargh!

(Nak posting kat blog pun memakan masa tidurku...., tapi saya rindu deh!)

Dahsyat kan penangan exam week nih. Padan lah kan, sapa suruh belajar last minute. The same routine continues... sampai lah peperiksaan tamat - 30th May!.

Masalahnya, exam paper yang setakat ni dah buat, takde la se-menarik mana...
I tried my best though. So... Alhamdulillah for that.

Buat masa sekarang ini, there's just nothing else I could ever wish more than, hari yang menarik!



Highlight of the week: separuh bebas - Saturday's evening :)

Mamita Dearest

Mamita Dearest,

I've been bad, and I know I'm tough to handle.
I said I'm sorry, yet everytime all I did was hurting you
and disappointing you over and over again.

Yet, you're still there whenever I need you.
You're still you even when I'm not in my best moment.

For so long you give us your all,
and you charmed us with all the greatest thing you did.

You are; a superwoman indeed.
My hero.
My biggest role model.
The perfect mother.

Achik sayang Mama.
You're the greatest.
and you deserve all the best things in the world.
That I promise you.

Happy Mother's Day!

xoxo,
Achik.

p.s : My first examination paper starts tomorrow. Wish me lotsa luck!

Konfesi.

Jika di hitung, kali terakhir saya menjejak kaki ke kampung halaman adalah tujuh minggu yang lalu, during mid semester break. I purposely return to uni late to celebrate Nuyu's birthday.

As far as I can remember, for the next three weeks, I was homesick.

At every beginning of every week, I planned to go home that weekend - but, failed.
The workload is just too much too handle.
Can't say much, but there's just too much that happened for the past seven weeks.

Tests, FYP reports (progress,interim), presentations, assignment & project submission.
It never ends.

Well, that's a student's life. Gila! Tapi, no complain I guess.

Along the way, there's the ICT/BIS Dean's List Award, the photog's outing and the last-minute preparation for the batch-course dinner.

Coursemates - the DL holders for semester July 2007

photogs selepas menjamu selera and right before bersurai.

skemanya semua gambar-gambar...

Wait. I think I miss something. *uhuk-uhuk*

Not forgetting, the drama. (atau lebih tepat lagi, drama-drama).


That's the main reason for being so homesick and emo (Lihatlah saja my post along that time). Di sana-sini konflik, salah-faham, jiwa kalut, makan hati.
Macam-macam lah kiranya.

My heart is filled with despair- eating all my heart out... dan semua yang mahu adalah terus lena agar dapat terus sembunyi dan lari dari segala.



However it all ended in one night - malam konfesi.

The night that I realized that I'm no good in spoken words just as I am in my writing.

Konfesi #1
Rasa sedikit pelik dan hampa bila one heart sing turned to confuse many people. The people that I don't meant to, and yet they feel that way. Saya memang tak erti bercakap straight cause my words seems to be all harsh. Cakap pusing-pusing memang dah jadi tabiat beberapa kala ni - so it won't target anyone directly, just the people who understands can be kill from within.

So I was strangely hurt when they thought I was writing it for them. I read the words time from time again and again, and yet I can't still find what makes them think it's for them. Buat saya rasa macam, they don't think I appreciate all the times we had together all this while; which I do. Sayang sangat.

However, terlajak kata tidak boleh di tarik lagi, kan? And I can't do anything to set human's mind to think the way I think. Misunderstanding sometimes happens... I guess.

Make me realize that I have to think twice- that it's not just my feeling that I've to consider. The world does not revolves around me only. Words can kill.


Tapi, in a way, I'm really glad that night happens.

I cried full-heartedly after a very long time not doing it... Rasa terlepas segala yang tersekat, tersimpan, tersumbat di dada. Relieved yang maha amat!

No kidding. It was like, the best ever thing that happened for the whole time.

Fiuh.

Anyways, we manage to clear up all the misunderstandings. I do believe that now our friendship is stronger that ever, and that's super great ;)

Konfesi #2
The next hour I'm back in my room, something suprisingly happened.
Remember ini?
It's settled. :)

fiuh. fiuh.



Dada rasa lapang since then.
I don't have a reason to run nor hide anymore.

siang malam dah terbalik.

malam-malam tanpa tidur walau berbantalkan empuk.
mata tertutup tapi bukan nya lena.

sudah separuh meninggalkan alam dunia,
tapi bayang masih bertahan meninggalkan kesan
walau sudah lama berjalan jauh.

seperti masih ada walau tiada.
tidak bohong jika di kata, siang malam benar sudah terbalik.

aku jadi lesu.
bertahan hanya demi mengejar cahaya.
masih teguh berdiri,
masih menyimpan sedikit warna yang suci,
agar tidak lari dari kesilapan sendiri.
agar tidak berhenti dari mengejar pelangi.

satu hari akan dapat aku genggam semua.

Goda-godaan,

Today, bermula-lah study week.

Dua hari aku bersenang-lenang -
and that explains why I haven't finish project SM and assignment DM :p

Sikap malas tidak rajin ini, I don’t know when it started. But why should it stay this long!?
Tiba-tiba I imagine myself being a nerd, macam zaman sekolah-sekolah dulu.

I had no life back then. But at least,
I live my life happily when the works are done.

*big sigh*

The worst thing is - aku tak rasa bersalah pun membuang masa. Ha ha!
I'm having fun buat benda-benda lagha tuhh :P

Too bad-lah the things I do and the things I love, are on a different route.
If not, maybe I’ll create something amazing myself.
Who knows lah kan?

Nevermind. The past is past.

One month left, so kena strive hard!
Kena melupakan kejap bergoyang-goyang kaki.

And hopefully, no more last minute work ;)

wishlist - a day out bergoyang kaki melihat langit biru.
countdown: satu bulan, till the blueSkyHoliday!

Class of 2008.

So, memang dah terbukti. I'm not born to be a
presenter, nor a singer. Doingg!
Dua-dua pun ada nervous breakdown. Shaking tak boleh blah.
Macam lah sekarang baru ku tahu. hak hak.



whops. tak faham what's going on? okay. Recap on last night.



Finally, the time has come.

The ballroom.

Everyone was incredibly beautiful & handsome.

the guys & the ladies.

The crowd was super awesome, sporting and happening
involving in the activities and enjoying themselves
throughout the night.

the emcee, doing their thing.

The performers of the night.
(Yep, that was me. *BLUSH* Don't ask how sxck I am! HAHA!)


The Battle of the Table.
Serious kagum gila dengan semangat table diorang!!

Lucky Draw + Quiz Winners!
Lucky, Lucky!


The Chosen One - doing their Poco-Poco dance.
The Crowd yang sangat happening + sporting!!

The award winner - most voted!

The suprise performance - from
the cute couple ;p, the King & Queen, the CT NurAdlina + Elvina Rimes ;p

The night is a total blast!!!

All the exhaustion for the party paid off!
The smiles, and the laughter explains it all. Puas hati sangat, okay!

Who can ever thought we'll be able to gather together in one room enjoying our quality time together? Well, we can! We just did. Ahaks.

The whole class!
Well... almost :P

I'm loving each moment of it.
Thanks to them,
It is truly a night to remember...
:)


This goes to Jengs,
We did it! A round applause to us,
and a big boo to those who think we won't make it. They're soooo wrong.
The committee rawk amat!! And what's with making this personal, huh?
It's about the whole class. We're just making it happen,
but the crowd is the one who make it Alive!
So, they rawk even harder. =D

The beloved committee who make it happened!
Yeah!

Jengs, luv korang the most!

So, till next gath, maybe?
xoxo.

-A-



pics : cdt to rumi(off. photog), akay, paklah, dayah, bubub. (i want moar! :P)